Merry X'Mas Everyone!!!

In the year of 2010

I think i will make a closure to the end of 2010, this year has been exceptionally interesting for me, life seems to be on a roller coaster. This year is also for the first time i feel like giving up on a lot of things.

Be it in work place, whereby i wanna give up halfway through the course, telling my bosses i dont wanna do the work anymore, etc. A mixture of feelings. On the other hand, i am very happy, cuz my performance is considered the top few? thus, resulting in all my performance bonus to get the maximum available. Its been 2 years since im ranked the top few in the entire place. Btw, i was ranked 1st for the last workyear, that perhaps explain why i get to go Australia early this year. Seeing batches of ppl come and go, it sets me wondering, what if im not here, what would i be doing? All of them who spoke to me, they strongly believe that i can go far in my current job. But to me? Im not sure? Cause i was just doing slightly more than what others are willing to offer. My current work place, i met really very nice ppl who will really look after me, willing to teach me, groom me and stuffs. Even when i go for courses, there will always be nice ppl that i will meet who will lend me a helping hand. I will always remember the one who helped me lifted up my bag when i can no longer carry it up, the one who is willing to get the food purchase done when i have a tiny budget. I oso met interesting ppl who shown me that Wing Chun martial arts is powerful, im really gladful i met so many different ppl that made me happy throughout the course. I think i better list them down here before i forget them in the future. They are Qiu Guang, Saravannah, Shazali, Justin, Sean Ng C B, Alvin Lee. They made my course memorable. W Shawn for believing that i can deliver a good speech. Thank you.

On a side note, i mentioned that i was studying. And it so happen that i was attending the course which requires me to stay in. LOL!!! and i managed to squeeze time to go take the exam. which also means that all study is done at night in camp? haha so im glad to announce my lousy results but a result that have all PASSES!!!! This include a total of 2 B, 1C+ and 1C. Although all of you might think that its nothing great, but i can tell you in order for me to study after one day of training is like WTF! its fuking tiring, merely studying a few wordsin the textbook i feel my eyelids getting heavier and heavier. So when i see that i didnt fail and i perservere through to go take the exams, i tink that i have already overcome my inner fear. I was afraid that i will fail for the first time in exams. Throughout my entire life, i am a nobody in the line of studies, but whenever it comes to the time to take my final exam i will manage to squeeze through and get a normal grade. But this time, due to the fatigue level, my assignments grades (which is like-.-), the time i allocated to study and the amount of stuffs that i manage to squeeze into my brain. I was really afraid that i will fail. I was so relieved to see that i made it through and that my decision to study now is correct. Why wait? and why bother what others tell u? people ask you stupid questions, it does not mean that you are doing the wrong thing. Its just that you are willing to take the first step before anyone else does. They will come to be envious of you when they see that at the end of the day u made it through with something.

The route may be tough, but which thing on earth isnt tough? U already overcome the most difficult part of learning how to walk on 2 feet, speaking at least a dual language by the time you are 3 yrs old. Nobody told u to do it, but back then you have such resilience to not stop trying, so i believe there should be nothing to stop me now. Tough times dont last, but tough man does.

Anyway, I got 0094 for SPV. hahas, means i can choose liao. Most important thing in life, you must believe what you are striving for is worth it, and that you have someone by your side that supports ur decision and the route you wish to take. I believe that its important, and i now have Grace by my side who is ever supporting my decisions and i sincerely thank her for that unwavering support. Thank you darling!